I've had a hard time lately. I've been conspicuously absent from my writing lately, because I haven't wanted to talk about it. It's not fun, it's not clever or light-hearted. But I will do my best to approach it with my usual batch of sarcasm.
We are struggling. As you may recall, I have been riding the unemployment train since January, and taking advantage of this time to stay with my favorite girl. Well, government hand outs don't last forever (even if there are people out there who seem to make it their job to make them last forever) and soon we will have to make a choice as to whether or not going back to work will be in my future.
Chris works so hard for this family. He's great at his job, and his small company has been good to this family. However, with small businesses come some setbacks, and growth tends to be one of them. Luckily, my brilliant husband has found a way to restructure his responsibilities at work, and his ideas have been positively received by the owner. I'm sure he wouldn't want me to talk about this. I'm certain he would rather me tell everyone that he's applying to NASA and I'll never have to work again. But the truth is, I'm proud of him. One of the advantages of where he is now is that his schedule is very considerate to this family. And he knows that. And he wants to keep that. Money is definitely not everything.
That being said, even with the restructure, it will be probably prudent for me to start looking for a part time position somewhere. The problem with part time work is the math of it all. A full time job is generally salaried, whereas part time tends to be more on an hourly basis. They also tend to be more on the lower scale of responsibility, which means that they are on the lower scale of pay. Part time work does not mean half of what you were making before.
But, part time daycare tends to add up to almost exactly half of what we were paying before. Meaning, I'm bringing in less money, and paying about the same for the amount of care I need. It hardly makes it worth it if you are working to bring in extra income. Get it? So, my options are limited. Either I , A) find a great paying part time job or B) find a job at a daycare facility with lowered or free tuition for employees, or C)find a job that I really really love to do that will make it all worth it.
But I love my job now. This is what I want to do. So C seems a bit out of the question. In a perfect world, I would be getting paid $20 an hour at a daycare that I love with free tuition for Violet. So if you know of that job, for goodness sake - let me know! I'm pretty great with kids!
But I know this is all a season. Every single member of my family has gone through hardship at some point in their lives, and we always pull through. We Grants are survivors. And we Kings are resilient. And for now, I have a lot of great things going on for the summer with my family and friends. So even if this season of my life is harder than I would like it be right now, this season of summer fun is going to be amazing. And I still get to spend it with my favorite girl. Even if maybe it's a little less time.
Happy Thursday everyone!
Love,
Dominique
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